Today, went out with Ivy, Jingyi and Hong Keng to Bugis ..... Met at Chomel in the morning and went to have a meal at Jurong Point before going there. But, I don't feel happy for that whole day .... in fact I feel bad, deep inside my heart. Tomorrow will be their first day of poly school life and they are talking about how they are afraid of starting anew. They had their conversation and I couldn't add a word to it. I realised that I am drifting, further and further away from them. From the topics they talked of, I couldn't much add on to it. The feeling of it was bad .... I'm really afraid that we will soon come to a point of losing contact. 6 years of friendship .... I just feel heartbroken when coming to think that it is going to end. I can't bear with that sadness deep inside me. They asked me why I felt so down but I don't know how to tell them .... I don't want to have their mood affected by me. We, girls had a hug with each other before going home. I cried on my way back home on the bus. No one will see my tears and sorrow there and that is only when I can cry out my heart. Really hope that I'm thinking too much .....