Just received a call from Ivy .... meeting me tomorrow at Chomel. She say she want to buy stuff to make a card for a orientation leader in her poly to thank that person for the hard work done. I broke down after the call. I realised that I mind for not being able to go into a poly with them this year. I thought I have already got used to not being able to move on with them .... Going to Sec 4 and 5, taking 'N'and 'O' levels and graduate with them. But, I realised I'm not ..... I'm not. I wished I'm able to have the same steps with them. I hope to rewind the time clock to go back to the past to make changes in my errors done .... But I can't. Badly and sadly .... I cried in the lonely room, as lonely as me.