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11 June 2010

2010-06-11T01:00:00.003+08:00

面对 + 接受 + 克服 + 放下 = 忘记

This is a quote that I have gotten from an old Taiwan drama, 西街少年 (westside Story). I like this quote .... It means, By facing the problem and accept your current situation. Then from there, overcome it and put it down as your past will equvialent to forgetting it. It is understandable but hard to have it done. To be able to face and overcome it, it's really a challenge and takes time, determination, perseverance and effort. Putting it down as a past is also another high hurdle to jump across. Some things are not easy to forget, especially when it affects your life deeply ....

17 april 2010

2010-04-17T23:49:00.002+08:00

Just received a call from Ivy .... meeting me tomorrow at Chomel. She say she want to buy stuff to make a card for a orientation leader in her poly to thank that person for the hard work done. I broke down after the call. I realised that I mind for not being able to go into a poly with them this year. I thought I have already got used to not being able to move on with them .... Going to Sec 4 and 5, taking 'N'and 'O' levels and graduate with them. But, I realised I'm not ..... I'm not. I wished I'm able to have the same steps with them. I hope to rewind the time clock to go back to the past to make changes in my errors done .... But I can't. Badly and sadly .... I cried in the lonely room, as lonely as me.

12 April 2010

2010-04-12T00:22:00.001+08:00

Today, My friends started their school life in poly. They have moved onto a new stage of life and i'm still in that school. Our lifes are different now ..... going on separate ways. We wouldn't be able to be the same again .... going out together, playing and laughing. I'm alone now .... left alone in the school. No friends .... no one to accompany me and to really talk to. All alone. No one knows how it feels to be me ..... to be the real me.

11 April 2010

2010-04-11T23:35:00.004+08:00

Today, went out with Ivy, Jingyi and Hong Keng to Bugis ..... Met at Chomel in the morning and went to have a meal at Jurong Point before going there. But, I don't feel happy for that whole day .... in fact I feel bad, deep inside my heart. Tomorrow will be their first day of poly school life and they are talking about how they are afraid of starting anew. They had their conversation and I couldn't add a word to it. I realised that I am drifting, further and further away from them. From the topics they talked of, I couldn't much add on to it. The feeling of it was bad .... I'm really afraid that we will soon come to a point of losing contact. 6 years of friendship .... I just feel heartbroken when coming to think that it is going to end. I can't bear with that sadness deep inside me. They asked me why I felt so down but I don't know how to tell them .... I don't want to have their mood affected by me. We, girls had a hug with each other before going home. I cried on my way back home on the bus. No one will see my tears and sorrow there and that is only when I can cry out my heart. Really hope that I'm thinking too much .....

Escape Theme Park Trip

2010-01-10T23:34:00.010+08:00

Met Hong Keng at 10am plus and went to Escape theme park to have a day fun. Planned this trip a few days ago because tomorrow is the release of 'O' results. He want to relax a bit .... before his 'death' day comes (hahas ....). Well, he paid my enterance fee .... so glad to be in Escape Theme Park for the first time and it's free. There aren't many games to choose, much to my disappointment ..... so we kept returning to the same few stations, especially those that splashes water around. Got tricked by him when played the first time .... He told me by sitting at the back seat of the water boat, I will get wet lesser compared to the front seat. In the end, it was totally the opposite of what he said. Got drenched and even my bag was wet too. After that, went to buy disposable raincoat before going for another few rounds. He went to drive the "Go-Kart" too but I couldn't because I'm still short of a few cm in height so can only be the passenger. Have nothing to say about his driving skill .... the car he drove banged the cones once, at the parking area. Ate at Burger King that day for lunch but feel that It was so not worth the value. They don't have set meal so have to buy the drinks and burger separately. Played till the theme park closed and went home exhausted ....

First day back to Huayi

2010-01-08T22:53:00.004+08:00

So glad to be back in Huayi today .... got a really big 'welcome back' from my classmates. For the first time .... I feel that I belong to their class. 2 years ago when I first joined their class, I was in the worst stage of my life. Retaining made me dislike being in this class and school for previous 2 years. I don't feel like bonding with them ..... and they already have their own group of friends so it's hard to now then enter their circle. Now, I really want to have my own really good freinds in the class ..... Met some subject teachers in class too. Feel great to see them .... 2 taught me not for the first time while 1 is. This year, my class got most good teachers teaching us ..... hope this will help us in our 'O' level examination. Went to Singapore Poly Open House trip with class that our school planned. We went after geography class .... a lesson after recess. We got a goodie bag each and went around for a tour in the poly. Got to know some courses that the school teaches. leave the poly at around 1 .....
After leaving SP, went to Jurong Point to meet Ivy, Jingyi and ZhuangMin. Went for a lunch at SaFra and then shop around JP. Planned this afternoon of event as Ivy don't have to work today. It's not easy to meet together as she has part-time work. I enjoyed a lot today .... hope everyone too.

From ITE back to Huayi Sec

2010-01-07T18:20:00.002+08:00

From tomorrow onwards, I'm going back to Huayi Secondary to take my 'O' levels .... this is my last and final decision. There will be no more changes ..... for sure. I have made my choice and have to stick to it. Those who are around me for these few years knows what had happened to me and know I dislike this school. This school gives me a lot of sad memories, although I know it's not its fault. But, now I'm going back .... willingly. I'm going back to face the 'O' level obstacle ..... I'm not going to run away from my fear of failing this time. Since PSLE, I have been running away from my fear ..... When I'm afraid of the stress of express stream and thinking that I woundn't be able to cope it, I ran to Normal Academic stream. Now I notice, the more I run away .... the longer is the route I have to take. Although I know may not make it this time, It can be once again due to my sleeping habit, laziness and lack of determination .... but I want to try. I know very well that I'm not stupid but a person full of weaknesses. I can actually suceed, is just that I did not try my best to fulfill what I want. I want to try my best to change myself ..... determination is what I need ....

2nd and 3rd day in ITE

2010-01-06T20:12:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went to school .... not feeling well. Woke up at 5 plus, having a diarrhea. Then, vomitted when woke up at the second time. Damn disgusting ..... previous night's dinner. I ate curry that night, just think how that liquid looks like ?? Whole day feeling unwell, yet no one is there for you. Sat taxi back home ..... and slept throughout the night. From Simei to home, journey so far ..... find it long, sick and tiring, feel like going back to Huayi Sec ......

Today, 3rd day of school ..... lonely down there. Remember I say having to know some new friends during 1st day of school ?? Different race, sometimes really can't get together. Got neglected during times .... and today, I'm alone for lunch. Too many malays in school and I just can't breath right ..... Went to Bishan after school to meet Ivy because of early dismissal. Talk to her and really enjoyed myself. Went home at 7 plus ..... I feel like returning to take my 'O' levels. Two school to choose from ..... both having no friends. Friends isn't the only subject, Simei is really too far for me .... Just by going there and returning back home makes me feel tired. Huayi should be better after all .....

First day of school @ ITE College East

2010-01-04T23:22:00.003+08:00

First day of school ...... Orientation programme. Honestly speaking, it's quite boring .... The school made games like amazing race. So tiring that have to run all over the school. Met with our class advisor today and feels that he's quite humorous. We met him from 10am to 11am and from 3pm to 4pm. The second time we meet him was at the sixth floor classroom. So high .... climb all the way up there using the stairs. I almost feel like fainting lor .... Hope that next time can use the lift instead. I met some classmates from the business school .... some from the same course while some are not. Had a little conversation ..... quite enjoyable. They are mostly malay females; there are only one or two chinese. Hope that we can be good friends so we can keep each other accompany ..... Wondering if tomorrow will be a better day ??

Happie New Year 2010

2010-01-01T21:07:00.004+08:00

First day of 2010 .... A new year and a new start for me. I am going to a new school. 3 more days before the start of school ..... Yesterday, I went to change the size of my uniform already and even bought a pair of shoes for school. I have prepare everything and are ready for school. I hope that everything will go smoothly and I hope that I can make new friends like Jingyi and Ivy. Lastly, wish everyone Happy New Year and a smooth start in 2010 .....

ITE registration, 30 Dec 09

2009-12-30T23:49:00.001+08:00

Went to ITE College East today to register my course application ..... I'm taking Higher Nitec Accounting for my studies. Just made this decision at 4am in the morning. Went there with Faiz and his family and met up with Zahidah and his brother there .... Reach there at around 12pm. The school looks huge with about 2-3 cafeteria. First time went there so excited. Waited for so long in the queue just to register ..... 1 hour plus of waiting (Damn long lor). Then, went to register for Co-op membership and buy uniform. The uniform looks okay to me, at least it's not bad. A little like office or home clothes because the uniform got no school logo. Lastly, took photo for Ez-link card . Have to go back to Simei again tomorrow ..... My uniform doesn't fit me so have to go and exchange . Meeting Siew Ming and Kai Song at 9am .....

Merry Christmas 09

2009-12-25T16:00:00.000+08:00

In a blink of an eye, December is soon bidding us goodbye. On this special day of 25 Dec 2009 .... I would like to thank those who brought joy and laughter and those who accompany me during my days of tears and worries for these past 3 years. A very big thanks that you all did not abandon me .... Hope that those who I know and those know me will be healthy and happy always ..... All the best to everyone in the future no matter where and what everyone is doing ....

Release of 'N' Level results, 18 Dec 09

2009-12-20T01:31:00.000+08:00

Finally, the release of the 'N' Level results on 18 Dec 09 .... waited and worried for so long. So worried about myself getting poor results. Now is the time to choose my future path .... head very pain T.T(even worse than before getting results). Thinking want to take the 'O' Levels or go Higher Nitec. Applied for ITE Accounting or Banking Services le .... But still thinking if want to enter a not. Arghh, Nvm ..... wait till get the application result from ITE on 28 Dec first then decide .... Stress ar.

Prom Night, 16 Nov 09

2009-11-18T17:13:00.000+08:00

Above are the photos taken during prom night, 16 Nov 09. So happy that prom night's here after so much preparation is done .... but, also very sad because all my friends are graduating and i will be alone next year (if my results allow me to promote ??). The food are not up to the expectations of most people. But, I have to say that the service is quite good .... The waiter and waitress kept refilling me drinks, just after i drank finish. Actually, I hope they do not do so ... that day not suitable to drink cold drinks. I ended up drinking more that 5 glasses of coke. The entertainer is humourous .... Laughing at his jokes. Oh ya ... I got a lucky draw prize and so happy to get a computer .... mouse ?! Hahas, it's better than nothing. The mouse cost about $40 plus .... Saw it in Popular the next day.
After the prom night ended, We took photos with friends. I cried as I can't bear to part with all my friends after being together for 5 years ... will miss them very much. Ivy went my house for a night stay that night ... we talked a lot about studies and girls' stuff. Slept at 4am .... After eating cup noodles (will get fatter !! ).
Dear friends, I will miss you all so much and will never forget you guys. Everyone brings me joy and laughter .... Memories of days we spent together are priceless and will forever be shared between us with the name of freindship .... Love you all always ....